Before summer holidays, my colleagues, fellow teachers, always ask, “What crazy plans do you have for the summer?” Most of them have worked with me long enough to expect some kind of physical adventure; trail racing in the mountains, ramping up my mileage to prepare for a race, etc… Usually the response I get in return is, “you’re crazy!” or “why do you put yourself through that?”
A few weeks ago on the Trail Running Canada Facebook page a fellow runner, Doone Watson (who seems to be an inspiration to many) posted a question in regards to the selfish nature (or the perceived selfish nature) of training for long distance running events. Many points of view were shared; the great majority of the responses to the post were overwhelmingly positive and most made reference to the benefits of running over the possible perception of being selfish.
Personally I have asked myself the above mentionned questions many times.
“Why am I putting myself through this?”
“I must be crazy to think that I am even capable of doing something like that.”
“Shouldn’t I be spending time with my wife and kids rather than spending 3 or 4 hours out running on the riverbank?”
And never have I really taken the time to reflect on why I do the things I do. So here are some of my reflections (mulled over in my brain while running of course!)
I know one reason why I do the training and the racing (and yes racing is a relative term, I truly believe that I am racing!) is because I can. Spring of 1997, at the ripe old age of 21, I was diagnosed with testicular cancer. This became my “aha” moment. I vowed that if I got through the operation and treatments, I would not waste one minute of one day being afraid of challenges or trying new things. Can running 50 km be as difficult as surviving 2 months of radiation treatments?
Since that spring/summer, I challenge myself to do things that normally I would hesitate to do. Try and run a 5 km? Sure why not? And gradually over a 10 year span, my confidence grew. Register for an actual race. Run 10 km. Run 15 km. Run a half marathon and finally last year a 50 km ultra. I figure I was given a second lease on life and I do not want to waste any opportunities (and by the way, 14 years later I am healthy, have 3 wonderful children, a 4th due any day and defying science at every turn!).
My last run did not last as long as I was hoping, so I didn’t have the time to fully formulate my motivation behind my second reason for doing this thing called running; my children. I’m sure I’ll get this reason all figured out during this week's long snowy run!
À la prochaine,
SK Clydesdale